So I had initially started a blog a little over a year ago as a healing tool. I was getting divorced, going to counseling, and realizing I had a lot of personal healing/growth to do. I wasn’t a total fuck up, but my counselor said it best when she told me I was doing a whole lot more surviving than thriving.
Unfortunately, this is not that blog. Instead of writing about it, I decided to get out and just DO it. I was working on life so much that I didn’t have time to jot it all down in a blog every night. So, as time went by, I forgot about my little blog that was supposed to inspire others through my life improvements. I keep having this desire to write, so today I decided to try and find my blog, and start it up (officially). Though, apparently as I’m 28, going on 90, I couldn’t remember my blog name or password. . . or even what email address I used to create it. I suppose it was meant to be. Who wants to read their drafts of pathetic diatribes from a year ago anyway? I say it was meant to be. Either way, here we are. New me, new blog.
So here I am, a year and a half later. I got divorced, started dating someone the exact opposite of my ex-husband, fell madly in love with this man, realized just what a true companion in life feels like, and how unbelievable unconditional love is. I realized the friends you think will be there, aren’t, and the ones you took for granted were the ones to pull you up when you are lowest. I learned to appreciate those true friendships and let go of the others. I found self worth in gaining 10lbs instead of losing it. I found beauty in others behind the lens of a camera and like to think I’m pretty good at it. I moved from Denver to Vegas with the love of my life where we started new jobs, and have met some of the most amazing people. To top it all off, this incredible man asked me to marry him. So, now while we are living our lives in Vegas, we are planning our wedding. I’ve got to admit, life feels pretty awesome right now.
I wouldn’t say I’m done, but my life feels a whole lot richer (and I’m not talking money) than it did in 2012.
BUT (like I said) I still have a desire to write, even if it isn’t spilling my every failure and life realization in blog format. Lately I’ve been really exploring cooking. In fact, I cook so much, that I often forget what I cook and how I cooked it. This is much to my fiancé’s disappointment when he asks for something yummy I cooked, but I can’t seem to recreate it exactly as before. I’ve found a whole new world of healthy cooking and have learned not only does it make us feel better, but it also tastes better. Last week Josh and I made the most incredible organic/gluten free enchiladas that we thought we were going to die of deliciousness right then and there. For fear of not being able to recreate this deliciousness again, I decided perhaps this blog could be my cooking outlet (amongst other fantastic stuff I’m sure). So, get excited. Deliciousness to follow.